Beautiful god,
Thank you for the survival, and being there when i needed you, I was in danger and i needed you to guide me, and keep me moving. I am so sorry that had happened to me. I was wrong for what i have done. And i swear to you I didn't know that would happened to me. But this time i was wrong. Can you please forgive me. I love you and you and jesus protected me....
You are always in my prayers, and I can never forget that.
Father god you are a caring person, and have always been there for all of us, you are our protector, and savior. For all the mistakes i have done, this one is the biggest one ever that has happened to me. I know that i like to have new friends, but my question is "Why"
Why did they do that to me? I've always been careful, But not this time. I still want to break down and cry, and not come out of the darkness hole.... I am scared, and there are times when i don't want to be alone. But I am a fighter, and strong... I am still alive because of you. You kept me going. And i am here. I know that i don't listen very well, but i do listen... I just have a hard time going through it. I don't trust anyone, except you and jesus. I will always trust you both.... You are my savior, protector, and my family too. I know that i should expect my sister nicole. But how can i forget what she has done to me. And how can i forgive her.... I do know is that i can not forget what she has done. to me and mom....
Mom is important to me, and i love her... But mom is not perfect, but i still love mom so much. Even niki is not perfect either.... I want to be a parent and love my kids and pertect them always... That's what I always wanted, and someday soon i want to have the chance to raise my own kids.... One thing that i won't forget is the kids that i do have, but they are with you. And thank you for taking care of my children. Someday I want a reunion with my kids.... please take really good care of them for me...
I am always gonna have them in my heart forever.
you are a beautiful god, i love you
